naked.

ill miss the late night talks. the evening breeze we share i wont trade for anything. the coffee we sip as we laugh and share our dreams ill keep in a special part of my brain. the sunburns and bruises i would like to keep them..for what am i without you guys? what have i become without ur company? where am i today when u wasnt with me that time? everytime i  smile, i owe it to you guys. and every smile i see in your faces makes me whole! and i thank the eternal light for this  blessing i dont think i deserve. ur the greatest gift in the universe and beyond. someday ill repay such kindness….all of ya take care! beep me =)

im hapi. sooooooo hapi that ur smiling a genuine smile.

a smile that i was missing…the portrait of a smile the first day i saw you.

and im so thankful that you found somone wholl keep ur fingernails clean - as what the song says…hehe

stay that way. be healthy! keep on smiling and thank you for everything. you deserve the best my friend and you got him. dont let him go. hes lucky. ur lucky. im lucky.

it feels so good to be in love again.

love,life and everything in between….. thats what im here for? thats what id been breathing for the past 21 years. thats what makes me think of how dreadful life can be. makes me smile. makes me want to jump off the freakin bridge. makes me want to taste the bread of life,makes me want to waste it!……. whats the meaning of life? thats what im here for. to taste it,to feel it, to make the most out of it! most importantly to grasp it. why live? why not? =) 

how did you end up like that?
how did hate consumed you?
i always thought youre not like them..
i always thought were one and the same..
our brains intertwined like those of a script in a melodrama series (a silly stuff) i always thought wont happen in the ‘real world’..
and here i am..i stare in my past! an experience (worth) im trying to save not because im a masochist as what my friends say i am! but because i want to remind myself not to trust people so easily. truly love can give birth to something beautiful or can kill everything worth saving in this world. and here we are in this 5 star orgy we just cant help but deal with! fuckin brutal reality we are trapped in! this insane world that has no way out..deal with it! this is life. dont ask for something! keep everything.

names xander a panda reincarnated as a human being and i love simple things+ flexible+i value friendship+i love babies,theyr fun to watch and when im with one im at peace with myself+i love rain,if only i can mold one id make it into a pillow and sleep with it+i love to hug people especially babies,my friends and family!,its way much better than saying i love you =) + i love to talk,im not much of a critic though! i want to sit with someone and talk for hours.any topic will do+ i love nightime compared to daytime+ i love to stare at the moon and the stars,such a comfort zone+loves adventures,that includes travelling,ghost hunting(im a scaredy cat =p) and extreme sports+i hate cockroaches,splattered toads in the street-but im willing to step on one for my soulmate =)+ i lost my soul,she left me for someone more exciting than i am+i care too much+i love to take pictuers+ the beach,ow life sure is a beach =p ahihihi + music is a good friend,she always reminds me that im not alone + you want to know more about me? be my friend =)

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and yepyep im looking for sum1 to share me bamboo with. i dont want an independent gurl! i want someone who needs pampering…someone who wants to be pampered by me! and me alone!!! an HONEST,fun-loving friendly gurl! where can she be?
Honesty is a big issue for my last relationship..sososso its a big NOno if a gurl is not honest…im not luking 4 sum1 like me coz i believe that opposites do attract mansad pro i just hope preho tag mga trip! mga ginagmay na butang! and ako ning gibisaya kai lisud nang naay language barrier! ahihihi…to sum it up! i want someone comfy! bladahbebladahboo "i mean what i say and i say what i mean" =p

my soulmate.
FALL.SURRENDER.DROWN.
yeah. take me with YOU.
hug me tight as we learn what life really is.
your pain is my pain….
let me help you help yourself
as you mend the scars that haunts me ( as we try to battle every second that we are breathing)
I WANT TO LIVE AGAIN.
SMILE. FIGHT.SWIM.
ill wait forya whoever you are =)

~yaw ko byae please. ahihihi btaw. kanang di ko byaan. yeah. lisud na pangitaon.