a good friend once told me that im like holden
caulfield aka mr. catcher in the rye, for
krissake! ehehe yes! i am skinny! and im a lazy
bum but that doesnt mean that i am like him. To
start with im not a misanthropist. I love being
with people especially with my friends! and the
fact that i have friends differentiates me more
from him. and i want to negate myself from
hatred, a step! which i think the character
wouldnt do. like mr holden i hate and spit but
im
doing my best not to. i want to plant seeds of
joy in may stomache and grow a garden of
orchids
in it, like what my goat phil did! but hes
doing
it literally, he seems to be a happy goat
though.
I should eat orchids too. we all should! that’d
be a good therapy for depressed pipol like
me,herbal orchids. the problem is my mom, she
woul kill me if she will know my what im
planning
to do, yes! i can blame the damn goat for that;
but what if she caught me? what if a neighbor
tells her that im eating her orchids? what if
she
knows the difference between a bite mark of a
goat and a human?………damn. the best way is
to grow my own orchids! that way i can satisfy
myself witout hurting my moms feelings (yep!she
love her orchids more than her dear son), and i
can share it with phil too. A HAPPY ENDING.
WOWOWOWOWOW
i miss my old self. why? coz i miss those days when we were still innocent! the days when we thought everything existed for a GOOD reason and now that im tainted i seem to look at the world differently, that people do schemes to satisfy one’s self,that theres an evul lurking within each and every one of us. my old self trust people so easily that he almost killed himself. hes always thinking that everybody close to him is trustworthy so he gave his life to them and that was the beginning of the story that made him what he is now…and now that i can see it clearly, its so fuckin obvious and most of the people i talked to are going to that phase,im alot better yet i still hope that i didnt passed that phase. no one is spared. we have to face this! REALITY! its so fuckin crappy but this is it. this is our ride to paradise,wherever it is. so! to all of my friends! hope your still breathing, dont give up! we can do this! ill be here forya guys! always and forever. peace out.
