naked.

I know we’re just like old friends
We just can’t pretend
That lovers make amends
We are reasons so unreal
We can’t help but feel that something has been lost

-smashing pumpkins-

"girlfriend"

It never even crossed my mind
that I would fall in love w/ you
You were always there behind me
but I never looked that way

I learned today
That I need you more each day
Grab on to you
(please) don’t ever let me go

im too tired to cry

not today. not today.

maybe tomorrow, but not today.

ill just let this pass

eyes crashing into the world

blood stained with regrets

innocence will shred again

but not today. hopefully not today

words wont comfort me

no one can, no one will

ill trip and eat bullets for my pain

but not today, no no no! not today

maybe tomorrow, but definitely not today

see me scream, see me bleed

ur words made me tear up my own skin

now i can see the colors of life, mostly red, almost black

ill lost my breath…but not today.

yeah. not for you, not today!!!!

behind me i saw your shadow, you and me going somewhere where no one will ever find us. there i was walking and i saw you with ur machine hopping happilly, trailing my path; you dont even know where im going yet you followed me into the unknown, ‘ill treasure this’ i said to myself. i kept on moving and you kept on hopping. why? i asked you and you just smiled, all in my head. why cant i just grab you and tell you that ‘today’ will be the last day that ill share this with you? its a sad thought yet im happy. i have to let go of this, this sumthin that i created. an illusion of what seems to be a hapi ending..let go! let go. start all over again.