…hakunamatata…
Sunday, April 20th, 2008i woke up with a horrible feeling. it seems that my intestines are going mad and they want to move out of my system. i felt that my head is shrinking and my lungs are caving in. i lift up my blanket and was surprised by my unholy strength despite the weakness that i felt -i am alive. it’s been three dang days since i burned my skin with anger as i left my skin on the wall that kissed my knuckles. i can’t feel my bones for a minute but it was worth it. now back to reality. i realized that i forgot to eat breakfast, lunch, (and yes! the family is complete),dinner. nobody woke me up coz they said i was peacefully asleep. yeah right! with all the nightmares that i had a coupla days ago they did a good decision not to spill water in my head. my feet led me to the kitchen where my mom left me a good variety of dishes- sinugbang isda, chicken, and clams with butter. my hand shaked while i grabbed the chicken. yup, im so hungry that i almost choked coz i chewed off the chicken meat and almost swallowed the bones whole. i was happy. it created a good feeling from within me- being choked and all. i ate with what’s left of the strength that i had. i never even managed to grab a spoon and fork. it’s been a while since i took care of myself and not worry about anybody else. to wake up without having to think what’s best for someone who needs my time (or so i thought). im so excited to go back to Dumaguete and get lost with time. to attend class is my main priority and after that i dun know what to do and thats the beauty of it! it’s so exciting to know what’ll happen before and after my classes. It’s more exciting to know that i have nothing to do on weekends. no plans, no worries. I’m going to meet a whole bunch of new people and it means new good memories that’ll push me to do better with my life. oo0o0o0w it feels good to know the truth.
i’m back with my old self =) come and let’s share some memories!!!!
